Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia 2013

I remember how I used to suck a lot at Bahasa Melayu for the SPM level. I never had any serious problems in tatabahasa or any other areas. I only suck at the writing. To me, the SPM-level writing for BM had always been tough. Because I am the kind of informal and spontaneous and just-go-with-the-flow writer. The English paper was easier to me. The writing was more open and not much of knowledge and formats needed. My experience is enough to be my content. 

Like, the first test I got 90 for BM because I was not required to do writing but I suck at the following tests/exams due to my writing. Frankly, I barely even get near to C and I almost failed once. Both my form 4 and form 5 BM teachers described my writing as immature. That's how bad my BM writing was. 

Just a week before the SPM, my dad got me a personal tutor. He is a BM school teacher and also my neighbour. He used to refuse to be anyone's tutor but since my dad persuaded him, he finally said yes. He is a cool guy. He is neither rigid, fierce nor boring. During the first class, he asked me to change my sentence because it was too informal. It may sound like an easy task but it was really tough for me. I was really stressed out and ended crying. My tutor was aghast and wondered why I was crying. So he corrected my sentence. That was so bimbo-ish and embarrassing but whatevs!

Just a night before the first of day SPM, my BM tutor randomly gave me topic for an essay and asked me to do it. He enlightened me. He encouraged me to use all the proverbs and hadith I know that are related for each paragraph. I have never written that much for BM. My SPM-level essays for BM have never even been two pages. I was always stretched only til one page and a half. I don't think I even slept that night. Probably too anxious.

The next day, during the paper 1 BM, which was writing, I was surprised (in a good way) to find out that question 2 required the answer to be exactly what I have done the night before. There was a twist in the question but the answer can still be used. So there I was, writing non-stop, could not help but to smile, and thank God for giving me that kind of bless. I already felt as if I could definitely ace this time. At least once in a lifetime. So that was the first and the last for an Adlina Don to write exactly three full pages for BM. 

The paper 1 English was quite tough to me. I don't even know what I wrote. All I know is that I wrote about two guys who I love very dearly, and how they sort of changed my life. But I have no idea if the examiner could relate it or nah but like, that's all I had in mind. I think I sucked. So I strived all out for the second paper. Thank goodness it was easy. Can't remember how I felt for other papers, but boy, during Physics, I had the silliest stomachache. 

On the day when the results are out, I went to school with my classmate, Syazana. We were from IMKEDA. The names of those who get straight As were announced and the rest should collect their results from their class teacher. So I collected mine from Encik Hafizy. We was like, "whoah takde B pun!" and gave it to me. Guess what my reaction was. I looked at the slip and laughed. 6As and 4Cs. 2A+, 4As, 3C+ and 1C, to be exact. I don't know why I find it funny.

Surprisingly, the 2A+ are Visual Arts and BM. Wait what? BM? Yeah. I know. I suppose God really helped me big time for that. But the subject that other people targeted me to get A+ for, English, I only got A. Most probably due to my crappy writing haha. As for the core subjects and Cs for the electives.

When taking my UPSR results (4As and 1B), I cried quite badly. When taking my PMR results (8As), I wept. When it comes to SPM, I laughed. I guess that's what we call growing up? LOL.

Honestly, I couldn't be more grateful for my results. Up til now, I can't stop feeling thankful for it. Because it shows that I'm inclined to Arts and that Science is just not my thing. So I know where to focus on. I didn't apply for any science-related courses on UPU. I didn't even apply for matriculation. I applied for human science, language, economics and masscom. I think my whole application was rejected because a worker from UIA already told me that the human science course was only reserved for those from Arts stream. I put that option on my top list so yeah, it was probably rejected. 

Also applied for diploma in University of Malaya and the application was accepted. So grateful to be doing Diploma in Human Resource. The subjects are tolerable. I even learned Accounting in my second semester. Got 40 out of 50 for midterm. That was so surprising. Like, everyone knows I never liked subjects that requires calculations. But overall, I love the fact that I chose this course. Though I think I might want to go for English Linguistics or Psychology for my degree, Human Resource or Business will still be in my list.