Is It True?

I've been thinking this way over and over again lately. Say hello to my old character again; when love is just a fairytale and I rather fake one. This kind of perception always hits me when I get tired of everything I thought I could have had. 

You know that feeling? That stupid feeling when someone annoys you at some points but you wont get mad. You tell yourself to keep holding on because they convince you that they love you. Yet it was actually your own words that you made by you and your brain only to soothe yourself. Funny isnt it? But we do it most of the times. 

Now that I dont think much about how I feel, I think I finally got myself controlled, yknow. Like even there are some hot cute sweethearts come to me and tell me the nicest things, I dont fall hard. I let it in my heart for a few moments then I let it fade as the time flies.

So you see, I have become what I am today because I dont want to get attached with any of guys. I somehow have this strange kind of feeling when a guy hollers at me. I feel great now that I am resistant of sweet talks and bullshits.

To have your feelings ignored is really heartbreaking but when I think back, the only reason I lose my feelings is because you were the one who started it.