It was a dreary Saturday. I studied History but nothing seemed to stay in my brain. I get pissed everytime my dad leaves the house to another place I want to go without bringing me along on the course for his work.
That time I could not help myself, I sat there ad cry. My dad felt sorry and promised whatsoever shit I cant recall. I just hate it when he promises anything. I know it wont happen. Whatever.
So yeah, sitting in your room alone drives you a little cranky sometimes. Like as I was weeping, I forced myself to laugh, just to reduce the pressure. Then only continue with the weeping part. Whatever.
Petang. Mama brought me to the hair saloon. Haha Azhar just loveee girls with fringes. And I was thinking of having a fringe EARLIER so I got my fringe. Oh and I cut my back hair til shoulders. Nyeh :')
We had dinner early at around 6.30 pm at Restoran Umi. Blahblahblah.
At night. Due to my silliest mistake, ma picked up a fight. The house was in hullabaloo. We were both insane what more when dad was not around.
As soon as she left, I took my KH books and went upstairs. Locked the door. Didnt even turn on the lights. I cried so bad. So friggin' bad.
Ma called me up. She was at the stairs. I didnt want to go down. I asked her to move first but she wouldnt. I cant even remember how long the drama started because both of us didnt want to give in. Why? Ma is a very hot-tempered person and as for me, I am tired to give way to her.
So I was... half conscious. I was a step closer to death. I dont know. I lose myself but thank God I didnt lose control. Eventually, I realized I was just made a threat out of all that. Maybe I just need to know if ma really loves me. And she does. Prove? She asked me to come to her a few times but I didnt want to then cried seeing me trying to do THAT.
We both cried. I ended up all that and cried all the way to my room.
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