and again,

Well hello there. I keep on thinking. Why am I still here? I mean, infront of my lappy of course. Exam is only tomorrow but I still couldnt stop thinking about the past so I tend to leave it here. Before this, I supposed to publish a post, which I cursed you alot. But I didnt, since I realized it was all my fault.

As you know, I love to flirt. But somehow it seems like it is no longer fun doing that. I dont know why. Maybe because I keep on thinking about this guy. The one I used to love. The one who used to be there to wipe my tears. The one that never use the word "No" against me. I didnt realize what I did. What I had. Its him that I've ever wanted. I had him. But I lost him. How stupid am I?

Maybe its true about what they say;

You never know what you got 'til its gone.

I left the guy who appreciates me the way I am for the guy who DONT. I feel like such a bloody jerk.

I've hurt you alot and I realized. But darling, you were the best!

You're the best. And yes, I do regret. How I could let myself let you go. Now the 's learned. I touched it, I was burned. Oh, I think you should know. -Katy Perry

However,

someone else is standing there beside you now. but there is something baby that you need to know. that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying. I have to see you, its all that I'm asking. -Son By Four

I should've known that I'll regret. But I wasnt perfect. I know you're mad at me. Call me a slut, call me a whore. I know I deserve that. Now I know that what goes around comes around.

I'm sorry that I've hurt you. Its something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through. I wish that I could take it all away. and be the one who catches all your tears. -Hoobastank

A few months back you were crying so badly. Your heart was terribly damaged due to my unconcerns. So now its my turn to cry. I wanna cry you a river.

We weren't suppose to separate. We weren't suppose to quarrel. Because I still need you. Sorry for my past behaving. Please forget my wrongdoings. I am stupid enough. And couldnt stop myself from missing you. What more to stop my egoism. Sorry for my past behaving. Please forget my wrongdoings. Flare it up to me.

I wish I have the guts to tell you that Im sorry and I still love you. Unfortunately, I DON'T. And I also wish I have the chance to be back in time so that I could change everything and still be together with you without any distractions. But darling, illusion never change into something real.

So I guess this is the end. You were the greatest and now you're gone. You got yourself a new partner, which is maybe, somewhat better than me. Wishing you the best for your future days. Remember me, as what we've promised to each other.

Your past greatest lover,

Adlina Don