Could it be any worse?

Okay I get it! Its sorta like punishment for me, isnt it? But urghhh! Why must today? Tomorrow's the math test for God's sake! Im struggling for maths and now, things just turn out to be like THIS. Wanna know how it feels like? Its like, cutting your own tongue or slashing your own lungs. Maybe its the punishment to me for being such a bitch. I feel so neglected at the moment. My heart's pounding as if it would fall in any seconds by now. I am so emotionally unstable and oh boy, I wish I could either of you by now but I just cant. Coz both of you caused me this whole SHITS.