Hopeless

Have you ever walk around feeling proud about yourself? Having people telling you how good you are, how talented you are at certain things. It makes you happy, knowing that people think you are better. But little did they know you are still not good enough and never will be. Someone is always better than you no matter what you do.

That night, just a night after my birthday, I caved in. I was disappointed about this. It become worse to find out something you shouldn't know. It was killing me inside, couldn't believe my eyes that later rained. Syakir texted me, asking if I was okay. I said takde pape lah. He then called. I told him I was fine and I was just sad a bit.

But the holy truth was that I was completely wretched. I wondered where was the one who told me that I always have him at any condition. Felt like it was just the night before that he said that. In fact, he was the also the reason I was shocked.